Lost In Beauty-

Sunday, April 23, 2006

Sorry Papa.. For saying that u were being unfair in my previous post.. Even though u don't have any single idea that i'd said that u were being unfair, i feel guilty all the same. I was the one who was being so unreasonable and ridiculous.. To get something that i want, i can be so damn childish sometimes. And for goodness sake, i'm going to be 20 years old tis year. So, GROW UP!!

And u, my dearest 'abg' iqbal.. hehe.. I'm sorry that sometimes i've made u disappointed. All i want to do is to divide my time equally wif u and my frens. Guess i'm not that super enough, and i tend to mess up everything. Even though i've made too many mistakes, u still love me to bits. That's why i'm crazy bout u.. =) And yup, 4th of may is coming up..!! It'll be our 5th month 2gether!! We really get along with each other very well, and those 5 months seem like 5 years!! 5 months and not stopping okay.. *winkz*

And to my dearest frens, whoever u are. I'm sorry if i can't be there for u sometimes. It's not that i don't want to.. Trying to be there for almost everyone is a very tough job for me. And without realizing it, i left somebody out. Really sorry bout that. I really thank some of u for being very understanding. I haven't change quite a bit lehz.. I'm still the nutcase who laugh about almost everything, and the one who always crack lame jokes that are so not funny sometimes.. hehe..

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Saturday, April 22, 2006

If i don't update my blog, it muz be that i'm too busy or that i'm too lazy.. heh heh

Okay.. i had gone thru my first week of my 3rd year in the new RP campus at Wdlands. It was not that very bad actually.. The only bad thing is that it is as though i'm studying in a north pole. Everywhere is air-conditioned. And most of the time, i have to go run for a peepee.. I took 'Netwoking and Security' as my specialization, and to tell u the truth, it is boring as hell.. no doubt bout that. However, i'm glad that so far, i haven't see any programming yet. Phew. I would rather do boring theory than interesting programming. And in addition, my presentation skill still sux to the max. Can't help it. Maybe it is sort of my phobia to go to the front of the class and talk confidently. LAME.

And luckily, i choose quite an interesting elective- Digital Audio and Video. Well, i hope it will be interesting throughout the whole lessons. It is all about doing our own short movies, and i can get to play around with those heavy equipments such as the big video camera, the lightings and yada yada.. Cool huh? And throughout the 16 weeks lesson, we have to come out with our own 5 mins movie. My team had come out with tis thriller/comedy movie, but haven't decide whether to make the ending funny or a tragic one. hahakz.

Niwaes, i'm not in a very good mood today. If i have the chance now, i feel like screaming at the top of my lungs. Really. My father- i wonder why he is being unfair. All i ever want to do is to go to the MediaCorp Studio 2nite and watch an 'Anugerah Skrin' Contest show. I get a free ticket for once in my life time, and maybe i won't get this kind of chance again. So, WHY IS HE SO RELUCTANT TO LET ME GO WATCH THAT DAMN SHOW??????? Not fair.. He used to let my bro went to tis one concert even though we had our religious class that nite.. Damn unfair. U.N.F.A.I.R. unfair. U.N.F.A.I.R. unfair. U.N.F.A.I.R. Ok stop that.

Suddenly i don't feel like typing anymore.. mood swing i guess.. hahakz..

Last but not least: I'm missing u my dear mohd iqbal..Yeah, i really sound like all of the pathetic love fools.

I use to think that i was strong,
Until the day it all went wrong,
I think i need a miracle to make it through..

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Sunday, April 16, 2006

Oh my god oh my god oh my god.. S.C.H.O.O.L .R.E.O.P.E.N.S. T.O.M.O.R.R.O.W.. DOT DOT DOT.. I know it doesn't sound dat scary.. but it is to me.. i'm gonna be sick.. haiz~.. School reopens at our new campus at wdlands.. haiz.. Wonder if i'll be lost in all those buildings and constructions.. HAIZ~ I'm having a major headache now.. no kidding..

Well.. now waiting for him to call me.. maybe dat's the only thing dat can keep my mind from thinking bout sch.. haiz~

Ok i think i sigh too much.. Haiz~

Stop it!!

Hope dat my 3rd year is much more.. ermm.. merrier than my last 2 years..

All i ever want to do is to successfully graduate from dat sch..

HAIZ~~~~~~~~

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