Lost In Beauty-

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Long time never update.. Many things had happened.. But too late to update anything from the past now.. Lazy.. So i write a poem instead.. Dunno how to tittle it.. haiz~

Fresh tears sting the eyes..
Slowly falling down to the cheek..
It felt cold when the breeze passed by..
But the only heart is burning..

Surrounded by loneliness and fear..
Like a dark blanket suffocating oneself up..
Crying out loud but no one could hear..
Nothing can be done except to give up..

Reaching out for the last try, hands up high..
Waving frantically to anyone who could see..
Pull me up, till I can see the bright sky..
That can shine away the darkness within me..

~ Written by a fake poet from the 21st century, FrEnA..~

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Thursday, October 13, 2005

I'm at home rite now.. Trespassing someone's wireless connection muahaha..!! I didn't go to sch today.. Not becoz i want to, but bcoz i have to.. heh2.. Nature calls larz..

Actually, juz now in the morning, i was already on my way to sch.. I was in the MRT when suddenly i'd a stomachache and needed to go to the loo desperately.. I thought that maybe i could 'tahan' until i'd reached Redhill.. But who was i kidding?? I couldn't even 'tahan' after i'd reached Lakeside..! So i had no choice but to alight at Jurong East MRT station and went to the toilet downstairs.. In the end, i decided not to go to sch bcoz i was freaking late already.. If i went to sch, my attendance would've been 'partial'. So, i would 'die2' get a C for my daily grade one.. Worse still, i had Java lesson today.. I really appreciate that my stomach gave me problem at the rite time.. Save me from being lost in the world of Java.. So conclusion: Better go home and sleep.

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Tuesday, October 11, 2005

I'm very tired.. sleepy.. and very full.. Ate too much.. haiz.. Juz went back from orchard.. Nazira and i went to 3 places to break our fast!!

1) Burger king at far east plaza. Ate a BBQ turkey bacon burger meal (which include the fries and a small coke drink larz). Nazira even worse sia~ haha.. She ate a mushroom burger meal.. And another burger.. ermm forgotten what burger it was lehz heh2..

2) I decided that we eat instant noodle at the new 7-11 stall nearby for our 2nd round haha.. Luckily the store provides the customers with tables and chairs so that they can sit and eat their foods.. Very convenient.. I bought a tom yam noodle.. Delicious, even though it contaminated my stomach..

3) Went to Swensen for dessert.. wonder what's wrong with us.. Dunno why so hungry and 'gelojoh' juz now.. wahaha..! We ordered an ice-cream named 'Frost Chocolate Malt'.. Or is it 'Frost Malt Chocolate'?? Or is it 'Chocolate Frost Malt'??? Haiyargh.. I've forgot bout the sequence of the ice-cream name lehz..

Yup, that's all that we can eat.. After eating, we were acting like as if we were drunk sia~ haha.. Very blur *(O.o)*.. Becoz we were too full to act normal..

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Monday, October 10, 2005

One day at school is already very exhausting for me.. It never used to be like this during last semester.. Wonder why *scratch my head*.. And i know that it's not bcoz that it's fasting month already or whatsoever.. I think that i'm already ssooo sick and tired of going to sch.. Knowing that i sux at presentations and won't get good grades one.. Last week- the first week of my 2nd semester- had been a long week for me.. The weekends seemed to take a very long time to come.. And i'm kinda piss that the weekends pass by so quickly.. haiyargh..

*Sigh*.. actually i dunno what to update for today's post.. Nothing interesting has happen recently.. Except that the president is going to visit my sch 2morrow afternoon.. Dunno for what reason.. If i'm the president, i'm not goin to visit my sch.. Hmph.. My sch has prepared for the visit by putting alot of flower pots at the foyer.. Duh.. Can't they put something more interesting than flower pots everywhere..??

Ok.. i think that i've nothing to write about rite now.. Going off now.. bye..! And to all muslims: SLAMAT BERBUKA PUASA!! Bye again!!

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Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Today is my 2nd day of my 2nd semester of my 2nd year in sch.. *(O.o)* I came late to sch today.. Feel very sleepy rite now.. I rather stay at home and sleep.. Can't take it anymore..

Today's lesson is on 'System Analysis and Design'.. Sounds interesting.. But, guess what?? NOT! I was trying to read the resources on the internet juz now.. But most of the time, i was staring at the laptop screen.. scrolling the page up and down until my eyes were crossed.. That's how sux sch can be sumtimes..

But i hate working as a telemarketer more than schooling.. Sux big time!! Yesterday was my first day of my 'on-job' training.. We, the trainees, had to call up different kinds of peepz to promote our products.. And it was horrible.. well, horrible for me.. Really.. Mcm2 karenah ar org2 ni..!! Some of them were kinda rude.. And i didn't make any sales yesterday.. Spend 3 hours in the office for nothing.. As i'm the impatient kinda gerl, i tend to give up easily.. And i'd planned not to come to work today.. I cannot stand another day there.. Serious.. I cannot even talk properly.. duh.. But nazira told me not to give up.. But sorry.. I think, after a week or so - or less than a week (!) - i'm gonna quit.. I don't care..!! HMPH.

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Saturday, October 01, 2005

1 more day.. another one more day until sch reopens.. Haiz.. WHY????????????????? Wonder who'll be my new classmates.. i'm hoping like mad that somebody i know will be in the same class as me.. And another 2 more days to RAMADHAN.. heh heh heh..

Okay.. latest news about me:

1) I'd quit my job last monday.. The 'promoting-health-products' job.. Finally GAVE UP.

2) I've got a new job.. Telemarketing. Wonder what's wrong wif me.. always taking a marketing-base job.. Asking for trouble heh heh..

The reason i quit my previous job: Cannot 'tahan' already larz.. not bcoz of the job (i hadn't even started yet, but i'd decided to quit.. wakaka..), but becoz i couldn't stand the stress and pressure of arguing with my parents bout the job.. i juz don't feel great doing a job that my parents don't approve.. it's like as if i'm doing sumting illegal.. But whatever it is, i understand that they're juz concern bout me.. don't want me to get into trouble in the future.. haiz.. But still, i really hope that they'll listen to me for once in a while in the future.. And stop acting like as if they know it all.. heh heh.. And for my frens who had voiced out their advices and concerns towards me after reading my previous post, i really appreciate it.. You guys rock!! hehe..

Rite now, i've got a new job.. again.. Telemarketing.. Marketing-base job again.. And my pay will only base on comission.. haiz.. ASKING FOR TROUBLE.. i haven't even tell my mom that i'm doin tis job.. Seriously, i don't wanna know what she's goin to say.. But i've told my father, and he seems to approve a lil bit on what i'm doing.. FINALLY.. I'm goin to start working next monday.. Every weekdays: 7pm - 10pm.. Sat: 11am - 6pm.. Kwang3.. Actually, i've no confidence to do tis job.. But it won't hurt to try for a while and gain some experience, rite?? Whatever it is, i hope that i'll be doing fine, and won't make a complete fool of myself.. Sick and tired of always being a fool you know..

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