Lost In Beauty-

Saturday, September 10, 2005

It's 1 am in the morning and everyone is sleeping (cept' for my bro who has the cheek to go to Johor (without my parent consent) at tis hour juz to go to one of the petrol station there and fill up his motorbike.. Aren't there any petrol stations in S'pore anymore??). I juz don feel like sleeping.. And updating my blog at tis point of time seems like such a 'good' idea at the moment.. My first week of holiday: Sux.. But at least i prefer to rot at home rather than having to go to sch and getting all Cs for my grade juz bcoz i don't talk much during presentations.. But honestly though, i like my previous class.. Not serious at all, love making jokes.. Haiz.. Unfortunately, we have to change classes next semester.. And the thought of it really makes me quite sad.. I have to start all over again.. need to introduce myself to my new classmates once again.. i wonder if they're as nice as my ex-classmates.. Changing classes really sux man.. Sux to the power of infinity.

I don't really do anything much for this holiday.. I've been lazing around at home like a gerl without a life.. To top it off, i've a maid now.. During my previous holidays, i was the one who usually did the housework at home.. But now, i'm as lazy as a pig since there's someone to do the housework for me heh heh heh.. Someone need to knock my head countless of times and shout in my ear with a megaphone that i need to 'GET A LIFE PLEASE'..!! Anyone care to do that for me?? I'll be thanking you for the next 70 years..

The only interesting thing that i do is reading novels.. Yup.. rite now i'm more interested with the non-fiction life rather than my own.. I was quite emotional for the past few days, but i don't really know what's the cause of it.. Maybe part of it was bcoz i was juz kinda piss off with one of my fren.. Last week, she sms-ed me and told me that i had change.. she thought that i was trying to avoid her, and that i was afraid to deal with her and her problems.. that time i was quite in a bad mood, so i went off saying "WTF is she talking about?????".. We've not been contacting with each other for quite some time, and now she's imagining things.. then recently, i tried to sms her, but she didn't even reply.. I don't really mind if she replied 2 or 3 days later.. But it seems like she don't even want to reply at all.. That had really set me off.. But now, i told myself that i had at least tried to contact her.. And if she still wants to go off this way, than that's her problem anyway.. If only i could solve my problems like solving jigsaw puzzles.. Talking bout jigsaw puzzles, i bought a 1000 pieces jigsaw puzzle at the night market near the Boon Lay MRT station.. Very cheap, $4 only.. Dunno why i'm suddenly so interested with it, when the actual fact is that i used to hate playing jigsaw puzzles when i was a kid.. Coz it used to give me headache haha.. But now, i liked the challenge in solving 1000 pieces jigsaw puzzles.. Bet it's much easier than solving all my stupid problems..

Now i'm wondering whether i should take a part time job during tis holiday or not.. i have 4 weeks of free time, and i don't want it to go damn wasted.. But i hate going for interviews.. I still remember during my previous holiday, Nazira and i went to tis agency for interview, and we actually had to pay $2 for the registration fee!!! WTF?? In the end, we got nothing.. Rite now i'm hoping for the 'selling mooncakes' job in a hotel restaurant which is recommended by nazira's fren.. Juz now she sms-ed me the details (the attires) for working in the hotel, and i panicked when i read, "provide ur own pantyhose"!! I was thinking, "How am i supposed to wear panty hose with my scarf on!!".. I quickly asked nazira, and luckily she said that it was actually nothing.. FUH.. I cannot even imagine myself wearing a pantyhose.. wahaha..

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