Lost In Beauty-

Thursday, July 28, 2005

WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO WEAR FOR THAT DAMN HI-TEA?? IT'S ONLY A FEW DAYS AWAY..!! WHAT AM SUPPOSE TO WEAR?? A SACK?? OR A RUG SIA~~!!!!???? Damn.. The hi-tea is held on tis Sun, but i still have trouble thinking what to wear for that occasion.. Don't want to look like a dork among the others.. Sick and tired of always being the ugly one.. DUH.. WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TOOOO WEEEAAARRR??????? Later going to this fashion @ Jurong East to look for clothes to wear.. Pray very hard that there's sumting that i can buy.. Haiz..!!

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Friday, July 08, 2005

Juz came back from my guitar practice.. So tired.. haiz.. Actualy i've been MIA (for those who dunno wat the hell it is- 'missing in action') from guitar practices for so long already, almost about 2 months.. Then suddenly 2day i make a comeback haha.. *Mcm star karat sak!*.. Actualy i was quite lazy to go 2day, but my fren made me promise to come wakaka.. She said that if i still MIA, the VP (vice president) will send me a warning letter. Funny sia~.. This kind of thing also must use warning letter.. like as if i have an outstanding bill to pay.. duh.. Now, Nazira has quit from tis cca (as she is werking every nite as tutor rite now).. leaving me alone sia BoO hOo..! I also tot of quitting, but i still have passion for guitar lehz.. Dun wanna regret later in the future.. Haiz..
Niwaes, at guitar prac juz now, we learn a new song. At first, i tot that it was a desert kinda song.. but at last i found out that it is a Japanese song haha! How weird is that??

Then the unfortunate moment came. During the prac, One of my slippers (on the right one) was torn! The (err... what u call it???) strap of my slipper was torn (tercabot)! At first i tried to tape them up together again with a scotch tape (see how stupid i can be sumtimes), but to no success. The tape was not that strong. Haiyargh.. tis is not the first time that my slipper is torn. In fact, tis is the 6th time that tis kind of thing happened.. Dunno what's wrong wif my foot.. My frens laughed at me sia haha.. Keep teasing me until i went mad! I had no choice but to borrow slippers from the mosque nearby ahakz!! While walking from my sch to the mosque, i have to go half-barefooted!! One of my fren kept laughing at me until his throat pain sia..! Serve him rite.. But i'm not that angry, sad, or panic-striken.. I laughed at myself too haha!

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Welcoming my baby bro into tis world.. that is full of happiness, sadness, excitement, boredom, hardships, challenges, sorrows, hope, chances, success, failures, judgement, criticism, trouble, love, heartbreaks, lies, lust and.. err.. many more..

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Thursday, July 07, 2005

Quite a long day 2day.. In the morning, ard 10 am, my bro and i went to the KK Hospital to visit my mom. Oh yeah.. From my previous post, i didn't even tell ya'all that i was goin to have a baby bro. Sori bout that yo.. And, yupz, 2day morning, ard 12am, he was born heh heh.. So, total up together, i have 4 siblings including me. Who knows we could make a new "Fantastic 4" movie in the future heh heh.. Yeah.. Very funny *roll eyes*.. So happy to see my new baby bro juz now.. He is ssoo cute..! But quite unfair that he is born to be fair while i'm born to be dark..! His hair was quite thick, and i have tis terrible idea that his hair is goin to be curly when he has grown up..! Haha can't imagine that sia~~! So retro! Then i left the hospital ard 2.20 pm..

After that, i went to town with Isnarti (my sec sch fren).. Fortunately there were not many peeps there.. if not, i would have a splitting headache trying to walk between the crowds.. I thought of buying a skirt and a blouse to wear for the upcoming Hi-tea (restricted for women only) that will be held at a hotel (forget which one already) on 31 July.. But most of the beautiful skirts that i saw turn out to be so damn expensive! The prices could make my eyes sore sia~! So today i didn't buy anything much except for a novel ($15) and a 'Whitish' compact powder's refill ($30!!). Actually, i bought the wrong powder's refill.. I was supposed to buy a $19 one.. But bcoz of my stupidity (didn't see the price before paying.. How stupid was that??), i bought the wrong one.. Damn.. Waste $11 sia~! Both refill looked quite the same, so i was quite confused.. haiyargh..

Then when Is and i walked towards the 'Tangs' Shopping Centre, I met my ex-pri sch best fren, Wendy Lim Pei Shan..!! Actually i didn't saw her at first.. I was walkin and talkin to Is at the same time that i was quite unaware wif what's happenin ard me ahakz! Then suddenly she (Wendy) snapped her fingers in front of my face and i was quite taken aback! I thought that someone was trying to annoy me or sumting.. But when i looked up, it was her! So long never see her.. She change alot.. More mature, like a workin woman sia~! She would always say, "you look more prettier' whenever she met me.. Funny.. When the actual fact is that i look more UGLIER than last time wakaka..! Then we talked for a while.. Told each other bout our recent lives rite now and blah blah.. And after that we went separate ways.. Haiz..

After leaving town, i went to my aunt's house at Teban.. And FINALLY reached home ard 11 pm.. Haiz.. And rite now i was so damn tired.. I didn't even have time to revise my Jave test for 2morrow.. Haiyargh.. why must i even bother?? Niwaes got to go now.. *YaWn*.. ZZZ

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Tuesday, July 05, 2005

AAARRGGHH...! I HATE TIS..! Juz finished my database test 2 today.. In the mid of the test, there's a prob wif my comp!! I was so panic sia~! Then i had no choice but to do my test on the test paper.. So troublesome man! Writing takes up so much time sia~! As i was quite panicky, i lost my concentration on the test.. I just scribbled anyhow one.. At last i didn't complete that damn test.. CONFIRM fail sia.. haiz~~

My lesson today is Java.. Hate tis module sia.. makes me headache sia.. I didn't even make an effort to read the java resources.. i juz wanna go home and sleepppp!!!

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Sunday, July 03, 2005

Wah lao.. weekends always end so soon.. Sianz.. 2morow is schooling time again.. Sux.. This weekend, i spent so much time going 'window' shopping. Cannot do real shopping larz bcoz my pay checks are still on hold to be put inside my bank accout. Double sux..

Juz now in the afternoon, me and my fren, Deyana (plus her family) went to this charity carnival for the orphans at 'Jamiyah Darul Ma'wa' at Eunos. Going to tis carnival was quite worth it!! There's a concert going on, and most of the star guests were popular artists from Malaysia!! I only saw, Mamat, Elyana, JJ- a lead singer from the 80's band, Carefree (haha, it's the same as the sanitary pad brand name ahakz!), and one newcomer singer whom i don't really know. So damn wasted that i didn't bring any camera along wif me!!!! Then got tis one touching moment when tis one orphan boy sang a song called "Ibu", with Mamat as his duet. He sang and cried at the same time...! It really broke my heart.. So pity.. After the song ended, Mamat hugged him.. To tell you the truth, i also felt like crying sia~~! After that, it was Elyana's turn to perform. Wow she was so damn pretty and mature and, err, tall..! And she was, like, 2 years younger than me..!! But she looks like as if she was older than me sia..! BoO hOo..! What the heck! Anyway, her performance was ok.. She sang her new single which i admit is quite good.. Forget the tittle of the song already.. haiyargh.. I was quite disappointed that i couldn't watch Achik, Nana and Syura performance. As the weather was so damn hot and there's only a few shelters, my fren and i decided to leave that place earlier. I didn't want to risk my face from turning black bcoz of the hot sun.. Eee..

Then we (Deyana, her younger bro, and me only) went to Geylang for a while.. Went to the 'First Lady' boutique at Tanjong Pagar Complex.. There were so many beautiful clothes sia!! And most of them were cheap!! Saw tis one 'Jubah' in maroon colour.. Simple but elegant! I thought of buying it for the upcoming 'Hari Raya' tis year.. But after thinking bout it for, like, over billionth times, i decided not to buy it (blom bayar puasa da step nak shopping untuk raya ahakz!) .. Save money first then can buy heh heh.. Can wait long long.. Then after that we went to the Esplanade, for, err, nothing.. Juz went there to look at the river ahakz! It's one of my favourite hang out.. That place soothes me whenever i have any problems.. Can make me forget bout them for a short while.. Haiz.. Then when it's after 7 pm, we went straight back home.. Quite a long day 2day..

Okay need to stop here rite now.. Need to sleep early as 2morow i'm schooling.. Ciaoz!!

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Saturday, July 02, 2005

I love tis song.. it tells us not to care bout what some peeps might say bout us.. Tell us to just be what and who we are.. Haiz.. Really love tis song.. Inspiring.. You must really read the lyrics.. Very useful for those who wants to be somebody else.. But remember, you can be no one but urself..! There's beauty in everyone of us.. Believe it or not..!

I don't wanna put on my make up
Just like every girl in a magazine
That's not who i am when i wake up
That's not who i wanna be

There's so much more to me than
Meets the eye
In this life I know one thing

It doesn't really matter what you wear
Let the people stare
Cuz we are who we are who we are who we are
It doesn't really matter what car you drive
It's good to be alive
Yeah we are who we are who we are who we are Who we are

Tell me baby do I look like the real thing
Or would you change the color of my eyes
Tell me why my television's filling me with lies

It doesn't really matter what you wear
Let the people stare
Cuz we are who we are who we are who we are
It doesn't really matter what car you drive
It's good to be alive Yeah we are who we are who we are who we are

There is beauty on the inside
Yeah you're beautiful All right!

Though it doesn't really matter what you wear
Let the people stare
Cuz we are who we are who we are who we are
It doesn't really matter what car you drive
It's good to be alive
Yeah we are who we are who we are who we are

It doesn't really matter what you wear
Let the people stare (it's good to be alive good to be alive)
Doesn't really matter what car you drive
It's good to be alive (who we are)
Yeah we are who we are who we are who we are who we are
(it's good to be alive good to be alive)
When we are who we are

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Friday, July 01, 2005

YeAh..!! I've received my pay check already..!! Next thing to do: GO SHOPPING..!! Luckily the great sales is not over yet..!! Can shop til i drop..!! WoO hOo..!!

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