Lost In Beauty-

Friday, April 29, 2005

Yoz... Finally it's Friday again!! WoO hOo!! I've just finished my lesson today. Rite now i'm still trying to recover from a splitting headache from stressing too much on today's java programming lesson today. Haiz... Brrrr....

Next week will be a busy week for me. Again. Duh. There'll be a CCA fair for the year ones on next Thurs and Fri, and i will be helping out. And u can't believe it that i have to come to sch on next Mon for guitar practice when it's public holiday. Some peeps will think dat i'm mad. But no choice lehz... Need to make sacrifices. Aniwae, we still need to polished up our songs that we will be performing for the year ones and during my advisor farewell party. Worse still, my group had decided to play "Right here waiting", and we are still struggling to get it rite, when we only have a few days left. Hoho.. Juz great. Besides dat, i also have to perform for the choir. And i've decided to call it QUIT!! Seriously man.. i want to quit from my choir CCA!! I don want to look like a fool infront of everyone, singing and dancing wif my scarf on. NO WAY MAN!! I have to take care of my image. I don want to look like a damn fool!! Not only dat.. I also hate some of the choir members there!! There tis one gerl who think she can get away wif talking bad bout us behind our back!! Luckily Nazira understand some chinese words and knew what she had said bout us. Hmph!! She thinks she sings very well. I almost vomit blood listenin to her singing.

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Helluz... it's almost midnite now but i'm still not sleepy yet heh heh... It's my fault if i wake up late to sch tomorow haha.. Actuali i juz finished doin my assignment in my sch's "student workspace" website. But what the heck... i cannot do my quiz coz the quiz is closed (that's why it's damn troublesome to have lesson and quiz online.Duh.). I think dat maybe my facilitator forget to open the quiz for me. I even sent him an email to inform him bout tis, but he didn't even reply.. waste my time only. It's his fault if i get a C for today's 'web multimedia' lesson. Duh.

Ok, enuf bout my sch (if not, nazira wil complain dat i'm always updating bout my boring sch life haha). I juz want to share my stupid poem wif u all.. Dunno why i even have the mood to do tis.. Haha.. *I'm goin crazy after midnite*.

Here i am, all alone
Trying so hard to hold on
Can't pretend to be strong
When love turn out to be so wrong.

I have no one but myself to blame
How could i have fallen so fast?
I'm torn into pieces once again
I dunno when this would last.

I really thought you were the one
How i wish i could have known better
I thought it's me you really want
But now, the truth seems clearer.

Right now i'm getting up slowly
After falling down so deeply
Stay away from me coz i'm healing
Juz by seeing you, it gonna kills me...

BbboOoOo!!!! Haha... i wrote tis long time ago, when i was heartbroken kwang3... Don ever feel sori for me or anything heh heh. I juz want to share my poem wif ya all, for once in a life time haha... Last time, i used to be sad when reading tis poem. But now, i practically laugh myself to tears haha... Yupz, my stupid love life stil sux until now, but i think i've grown more mature in handling heartbroken problems haha... *Ceyy, mcm btol je *. But, like what one of Kelly Clarkson's lyric says (in the song 'Because of You'): "My heart can't possibly break, when it wasn't even whole to start with..." And that's how i feel... *Sigh. Emo aGaiN!!* Niwaes, got to go now. Need to do some project work for my bro (that lazy knuckle head). Wokey.. BYE!!

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Monday, April 25, 2005

Yoz... how u all doin?? Actuali i feel quite bad for not updating my blog for the past few weeks. One of my cuzz even complain bout that haha... I'm flattered that someone even have the nerve to read bout my boring life haha...

Niwaes, i'm back to sch again. Time goes damn fast man..! 5 weeks of holiday seemed like 5 days! But niwaes, i've been in my new class for like 1 week already... My class is quite ok.. Still haven't really 'click' wif them yet. I haven't even speak to some of them. I only speak to those who are in my team only. Haiz.. Now i realize how much i miss my ex-classmates heh heh.. Today nazira didn't come to sch as she is sick (wah lao, so good, no need to go to sch!). So i went to lunch wif my ex-classmates. Last time, i seldom went to lunch wif them. So, when i finally turned up, they teased me haha... I don mind actuali heh heh... It just feel great to have that 'class spirit' feeling again. Niwaes, i kinda glad that sch reopens again coz it'll keep me busy and make me forget bout my stupid hearbreaking problem that happened during the holidays. Don't wanna talk bout it here coz it's no use lar haha.. I'm over it though. That's what i am: i fall too fast, hurt too fast, recover too fast. Haha. Duh.

Niwaes, the CCA fair is comin, like about 2 weeks, and i got 2 performances to practice- for guitar and choir performance. And in July, there's an acappella competition haha... So paiseh sia~ Singing wif my mouth wide open like a stupid idiot infront of hundred of peeps. Just great.. Ok got to go now. Wanna go home. Bye!!

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Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Helloooo!!! I dunno why i feel like updating my blog now.. duh.. I just came back from Jurong Point S.C. I went there wif my bro, auntie and cuzz.. It was fun juz hanging around wif them!! My aunt even treated us to Swensen. Yummy!! She is quite nice actually. Last time, she bought me beautiful clothes, and treated me and my cuzz to a quite expensive cafe. Wow.. I'm so touched.. Niwaes, in the Swensen juz now, i ordered a 'Cookie Summit' ice-cream in a very tall glass (I don't have the picture of it. Miss the chance to make all of you drool over it!). Very yummy, but too bad that i could not even finish it. Poor thing that it's such a waste. Niwaes, my cuzz and i had so much fun making jokes and tease one another. But at last, all of us looked very sleepy after eating too much. Kwang3...

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