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Sunday, February 27, 2005

HeLLuZzZ.. I juz came back from my cuzz's engagement ceremony. I'm quite tired, even though i didn't help much cooking in the kitchen and serve the guest juz now.. heh heh.. I was juz plain lazy.. Everytime when i was told to help out, i 'cabut' and hide in my cuzz's room to watch TV and gossip with my cuzz heh heh.. Typical gerl. Niwaes, i took a look at my cuzz's engagement ring- it was kinda simple, but very beautiful!! Then i started asking myself if i ever going to get engage in the future. DUH. Felt like slapping myself for thinking bout dat. I'm still 19 and i'm thinking bout such thing heh heh.. But to top it all, one of my friend (the same age as me somemore) has already get married last Sunday. Seems like everyone is attach except for me, woohoo.. I haven't even have a boyfriend yet, ever since i was born heh heh.. It's not like i'm desperate or anything haha *yeah seriously* .. But sumtimes i feel kinda sad dat boys don't really notice me. But niwaes, i'm use to being invinsible and ugly, and that's juz the way it is heh heh..

I also met one of my other cuzz dat i haven't met for very long time. I really envy her very much. She is like a beautiful swan, and i admit dat i'm quite jealous of her hehe.. But i don't have any hard feelings towards her, as she is very sweet and friendly. I also heard dat she has some personal problems, and i really pity her. Need to knock my head off if i ever feel jealous whenever i saw her again heh heh.. Well, sumtimes i need to be grateful for wat i have now.. So wat if i don't look like the beauties in the magazines?? I'm sure dat everyone have sumting special inside of them. It's juz the matter of whether they are going to believe or see it or not. For once, i'm talking senses.

Now, the problem is about my hair. Juz now, before one of my aunt was going to braid my hair, she checked my hair and said dat my hair is thining!! WaH LaO.. I had this really bad imagination dat i would go bald *ChOi!!*! She adviced me not to tie my hear or wear my scarf when my hair is still wet. Dat's the problem with me. I'm so use to the bad habit of tying my hair anytime i want to. Well, serve me right then!

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Monday, February 21, 2005

Haha.. The guys teasingly pointed towards our student conductor's (Juliana's) pics on the banner.

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The whole GeNrEaNs again, after our 2nd and last performance.

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The Classical Guitars

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The whole 'GeNrEaNs' WoO hOo!

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Guitar performance pic: Feeling so relief after the performance. PhEw!

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Guitar performance pic: That's me wearing pink scarf, 2nd from the right. I was very nervous dat time. Trembling like hell hoho..!

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Open house pic: Tis is me, trying to pose like a marathon runner. DUH. I'm such a poser haha.. I cannot even finish 2.4 km at the right time!

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Open house pic: My classmatez and i, holding numbers dat represents our b'day date. Hehe.. Nothing better to do actually. We looked more like the prisoners who happened to be happy being behind bars.

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Sunday, February 20, 2005

YoZz!! Hiyah.. So long haven't update my blog!! I'm very sori to the max...! I was so damn busy for the past few days, with the open house and all.. Actually, last time i had so many things to update about. But there's no time for me to do it.. So i juz let it be heh heh.. Niwaes, i juz want to update about the open house which was held on the last 3 days (17, 18, 19 Feb). Finally, it's OVER!!!

RP OPEN HOUSE: ARE U GAME? (whatever that suppose to mean *roll eyes*)- 17, 18, 19 FEB

My duty for this open house was to become a librarian who gave resources/information papers to students who were playing a mission to solve a crime scene aka CSI, which involved a dead cat. Yeah, the victim is a cat; an animal (Like, whoever even bothered to solve a crime scene involve a dead cat?? DUH). I have a 4 letter words to describe this game: LAME (Lame, game- 2 good rhyming words). In this open house, the students were needed to go for 5 missions (one example is this lame CSI game, and other missions such as the IT mission and so on) in order to win lucky draw prizes. If i were one of the student, i rather go home and sleep.

Ok, now i'll tell u wat had happened during the open house, day by day, from Friday to Saturday (if u even bother to read this heh heh).

Thursday: The first day of open house. I was very nervous, even before i started my first duty as a librarian. I'm always nervous about anything! I thought dat i would mess things up as i'm so blur like the sotongz. Well, i did mess up at first. I was so nervous dat i gave the wrong resources to the students (sometimes i really wish dat i could stop embarassing myself for a moment in my lifetime. Haiz). What made my duty quite difficult was dat i couldn't tell the students wat resources dat i had. They had to think wat resources dat they want (It's juz the way the lessons are conducted in RP. We always need to think by ourselves and not to depend on the facilitators). Well, some of them asked for the resources dat i didn't have, and it was quite a waste of time to let them think for the correct resources. It kinda made me lost my patience, and sometimes, i juz had the urge to juz tell them right away wat resources dat i had. But then, rules are always rules heh heh.

Friday: My first guitar ensemble performance for the open house. Well to tell u the truth, it was kinda terrible. Firstly, there were not many audience who watched our performance. We performed at 11 o'clock in the morning, and there were still not many students who had come yet. But it was quite a relief that there's not many audience actuali, as our performance was quite messy and terrible hahaha.. The music we played was all mess up!! I couldn't even play properly as my hands were trembling so much!! The sound system was also not very good. I don't think dat the peeps who watched us could hear the songs dat we played. Hiyaa.. Besides dat, i also got another performance- the chorale performance. Well, i was just an extra from behind haha.. Niwaes the DJs from the perfect 10 came to our sch. I wonder wat they think bout our boring sch heh heh..

Saturday: Another guitar performance, but fortunately it was better than on Friday. The sound system was good and, well, i did mess up a few notes and missed a few strings heh heh (so paiseh) but overall it was ok. Except for the song 'La Cumparsita'. It was a difficult and fast tango song to play. The song is actually quite nice, if we ever play it properly next time heh heh. After the performance, i realized dat the peeps could actuali hear me play, as the microphone dat was juz right infront of me actuali works wahaha...! So i guess the peeps could also hear dat i made some mistakes. Kwang3...!

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Thursday, February 10, 2005

HeLLuZ!! Firstly, i wanna wish all my chinese fwenz a very 'GoNg Xi Fa Cai'!!! Happy Rooster New Year to all of u!!

Niwaes, i'm in my room now, doin nothing, juz exploring this laptop over and over again until i'm getting sick and tired of it heh heh.. I've also juz finished singing my lungs out. Dunno wat's wif me today. I thought of revising for my upcoming VB.net UT3 which happens to be on next Tuesday, when sch reopens again (SUX), but i've no mood to revise anything now.. Haiz.. Actuali, i haven't done very well in sch for this 2nd semester. Honestly saying, i'm nervous to see my results after this semester ends, and i'm even more nervous to show it to my parents- especially my MUM. I've been getting toooo many Cs. I don't think my mum wil like wat she wil see in my result slip. Let's pray dat she wil not slaughter me like a sheep.

Recap on yesterday, Wednesday- 'Chinese New Year':
Yesterday my family, cuzz, aunts and i went to the East Coast Park for a small picnic. Actuali it was a last min plan from one of my aunt. If not, i would be spendin the whole day gluing my eyes in front of the TV. But it's better for me to get a life outside- at least for one day, rite?? Niwaes my cuzz and i rented and rode the rollerblades there, and it was quite disasterous! I almost kept on fallin whenever i hit the SMALL rocks (duh), humps, pavement cracks and slopes. I was so tired shoutin for my dear life!! My cuzz was even worse than me. She fell and hit a signboard, infront of a shop some more.. So paiseh! Talkin bout paiseh, there was this one time when i happily rode a bicycle (after givin up on rollerblade) when suddenly this one guy (a 'mat' some more) actuali pointed out dat i forgot to pull up the bicycle stand, and i better did it ASAP before i fell down. I really felt like a klutz! So paiseh! So i sheepishly said 'thank u', and shockingly without even thinkin, i said 'sorry' too. Then I came to my senses and asked myself, "I SAID SORRY FOR WAT???". I felt so damn stupid, and hope dat he didn't even heard dat i said 'sorry'. Before i embarrased myself even more, i quickly rode away, out of his sight, and never to come back again!!!

Nowadays the weather is very hot- like in a desert!! Everywhere i go, i'll be perspiring like a pig- or even worse than dat! Worse still, my skin is so expose to the sun, and i hate it!! I'm worried dat my skin wil get darker again.. Haiz.. I've been trying very hard (for 4 years!!!) to have fair skin. But, with the weather like this, it's no use to even think bout having fair skin. Dunno if i should give up or not. Most of my fwenz and cuzz say dat i'm not dark. But, as i'm so stupid, i don really believe them, and i think dat they juz want to cool me down.. I know it's kinda stupid of me to worry bout this small matter.. But, it's all because of my past dat keeps haunting me. I used to be tease by some jerks and other peeps juz because of my very dark skin.. and i used to be VERY sensitive bout it. I don want dat to happen again. That's why i want to have fair skin really bad.. But now.. forget it.. **SiGhiNg aLL tHe WaY......**

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Monday, February 07, 2005

Yozzzz... I'm at the sch library now, doin nothing, heh heh.. Lepakz je.. Actually tis week is a non sch week- only for my sch.. So, for those who have to go to sch, i juz wanna say- "ApEr MaU sKoLa BeB!!??? Wakhakha..! I got guitar practice juz now.. I still haven't polish up the 3 songs that we - the 'GenReans'- have to perform for the RP open house next week! Haiya! Next week will be quite a busy week for me as i'll be helping out for the open house- just for the sake of getting CE points. DUH. Niwaes, got to go now. Nothing interesting to write anyway.. Can't blame it- i'm such a boring person with a boring life. Alwaes got nothing to write bout.. Duh.. Dunno what's the purpose for me to have a blog *roll eyes*. Ciaoz!

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Friday, February 04, 2005

YoZz.. I'm in sch now.. waitin for the 3rd meeting which starts at 2 p.m. Dunno why i feel so sad and moody now.. Haiz.. Sumtimes i don even understand myself. Next week will be my one week holiday. I'm so relief.. Phew! Actuali, i don have anything interesting to write about now. Juz feel like typing this stupid keyboard. Haiz.. I wish that today's lesson will end ASAP. I'm in my holiday mood. No mood to study or learn anything. Wonder if my fac will ask alot of questions during the presentations later.. I hate questions.. Coz i dunno how to answer them.. haiz.. She always shoot questions at those who are quiet- like me. I hate it. So embarassing.. Niwaes, wat the heck rite.. Okay, need to go off now.. Ciaoz.

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Wednesday, February 02, 2005

Me and Nazira. Smagat ambik gambar sak.

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This is me, in the Chorale practice room yesterday. Waitin for the instructor to come.. Haiz..

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Tuesday, February 01, 2005

HeLLuZz.. Today is already the startin month of February. Time goes really fast nowadays. Haiz.. Need to slow down a bit lehz.. I cannot even catch up. So little time, so much to do..
Niwaes, i had taken my Basic Sci UT 3 this morning. So damn terrible. I didn't do one question, and it costs me 9 marks. It's a question about heart attack and blood clots. I was absent for the Basic Sci lesson last 2 weeks (which was about heart disease and blood clots and whatever..) as i was sick. So i dunno anything bout it. Great.. Better start throwing a good luck party for me, before i start throwing myself out the window. Haizz..

I had just finished my lesson in school. Today's lesson was Entreprise skills. I was so damn nervous just now. My class had to do a so-called 'Trade Show' at the annex-hall to show our skills on promoting a handphone. And even worse still, we had to present infront of a different class. It's like a promotion competition. I was so scared, i didn't even speak out- all the way. But my team did won 3rd place. But i don't feel a sense of achievement as i don't feel that i had contribute anything. Niwaes, congratulations to them. I can be such a nutcase sumtimes.

Right now, i'm waiting to go for my new CCA practice- chorale practice, hahaha.. I'm so paiseh u know... i'm the only one wearing scarf. Yeah, i know, it's kinda stupid of me to worry bout such thing. But, that's what i am- such a worrywart. Niwaes gotta go now. Ciaoz.

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