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Monday, November 29, 2004

Yoz.. Quite sleepy today.. Haiz.. Got Monday blues some more.. And today's module is entreprise skills.. yada yada **roll eyes**. Want to learn a meaningful maths formula? Monday + Entreprise skills = the worst day of my life. There, you learn it, and i guarantee you that you'll pass your 'O' level. Serious.

For the last weekend, Saturday and Sunday, i went out 'jalan raya' with my friends. On Saturday i went out with my Sec sch frenz. Only the 6 of us only. It was ok but can be said quite boring.. But we still got joke around with each other.. Quite fun.. Long time haven't tease them heh heh.. But i ate too much u know! Every house have to eat one! Imagine if i have to eat in all every 20 houses.. I'll really turn into one damn watermelon!

But Sunday even more WORSE! I went out with my religious class friend, and actually it was fun.. but at the same time, DISASTEROUS!! It was raining heavily, and out of the 8 of us, i was the only person who brought an umbrella.. So as all of us cannot fit in into one small, tiny winnie umbrella, all of us were soaked wet! And even worse(!), I brought a paper bag- so stupid of me, and as the bag was also wet, it torn apart, and all my things including my purse and hp dropped in the middle of the road!! Luckily there was no heavy traffic at west coast rd yesterday. If not, i don't know how i was going to pick up all of my things back! But the sad part is, i officially announce that my hp is completely damage.. **BoO hOo!**. The screen is cracked and all the rainwater clogged inside it. Just Great rite... Now i have to used public phone again.. haiya.. But the worse still yet to come.. I kena scolded by my father for coming back home late.. It's only 11.30 p.m. what.. As if i went back around 3 a.m. duh.. But i understand lah that he concerned about my whereabouts.. LOL.. YaYa.. It's my fault alrite.. Niwaes.. that's all my story for today. Quite long huh.. Okies.. CIAOZ!

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Thursday, November 25, 2004

(-_-) Dunno why I feel like shit today lehz.. No mood.. I hate mood swings.. Today I came to school quite late.. Okok not only today, but almost everyday, like as if my father own this retarded poly heh heh.. Kalau kat Sec sch, da lama da aku kena maki hamun ngan Disipline Master..

I'm a very busy woman nowadays (Me?? Woman??? Ya rite!) .. *SiGh*. Got so many activities to do! Especially now that i'm in charge of a Hari Raya Concert- "Perjumpaan Hari Raya"- which will be held at West Coast CC on 11 Dec.. Now i realise that it's ONLY 2 WEEKS AWAY!! Wow, time really goes out of control! Some of my friends and i are in charge of coordinating the stage- also known as the stage coordinators (duh.. can't i just use simple term **roll eyes**), and we also teach the small kids how to dance for their 'Tarian' performance. Haha.. They are very cute!! Yesterday was our first day to teach them their 'first malay dance'. Most of them showed us all different kind of funny steps, that i just can't resist laughing my heads off.. Well, they are just small kids right.. wahaha!!

However, I realise that I'm so busy with the concert that i'm starting to SLACK on other things, such as my guitar practice in school! Wah lao.. i've missed 3 practices already. And i'm the assistant sectional leader somemore.. I don't even come for the sectional leader practice! Wahaha.. Nasib aku laaa kalau kena terajang.. Heh heh More worse still, i haven't polish up playing the song 'Clementine'.. But fortunately can play until finish la.. Only a bit slow.. What the heck.. Practice like mad for so long already, but still quite slow.. Kwang3..

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Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Me AnD mY fAmiLy AgAiN- 2nD DaY oF HaRi RaYa.

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Me AnD mY bEaUtiFuL CuZzeNs- SeBeLaH bApAk.. MuKa StOiNk SaK aKu..

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My BaBy SiStA and BaBy CuZ!! SeNGiH sUsAh DaTaNg NyEr..

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My FaMiLy!! First day of Hari Raya at my auntie's house. I dunno what was so funny that I laugh until I almost fell off the sofa!

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Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Yoz.. So long haven't update.. Dunno what to update lehzz.. I'm sick and tired of updating bout school most of the time.. Pity to all of you who have to read about my boring life in school, heh heh.. School holiday is around the corner!! I can't wait to get out of this retarded poly!HOORAY!!

Wow.. time goes very fast! It's already 2nd week of Hari Raya, but i still haven't go to that many houses. Always busy with school, and tests, and all... Hiyaa! I dunno if i even have time to go out 'jalan raya' with my secondary sch frenz.. Actually, i planned that we go out on Saturday but more than half of them cannot make it!! Really makes me very sad man..! But, just hope that they are free next Friday.. If still not free.. Maybe the next 50 years.

You know what!!?? I've gain weight!! After fasting month, i eat too much already! I really need to stop eating so much before i turn into one damn watermelon.

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Friday, November 19, 2004

ELo EvErYbOdY!! Today's Culture and Atheistic lesson is very relax, not very stress.. Because we're doing a topic about foods of different culture today! My favourite topic!! FOOD!!!! But there's no guarantee i can get good grade WAHAHA. There are many pictures of different kinds of foods in the problem statement. Really makes me hungry MAN! Haiz.. but i cannot eat too much lehz.. Later become fat- nangis tak berlagu aku wahaha. Ok, i need to go for my break now! TO EAT! AND EAT! AND EAT! **Btul nyer senang hati aku ni**

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Tuesday, November 16, 2004

First of all, i want to wish all the Muslim "Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri"!! To all my family and friends, please forgive all my wrongdoings all this while.. heh heh.. For the past 2 days, i've been eating quite alot, muching all the cakes and biscuits and all kinds of foods- as if it was a form of mouth exercise. I need to be grateful that my teeth didn't fall apart..

I think i will not be going out to other people house that much for this year "Hari Raya". I'm grown up already mahz.. But i'm looking forward to go out with my sec sch frenz!! So long haven't see them.. Hope that we have time to go out together.. Well, some of them are quite busy though.. So sad *sob*..

Hiyyaaazz.. now i'm stuck in school again after 2 days of holiday and celebrating "Hari Raya".. Worst of all, i'm having VB.net lesson today.. And i still dunno a single thing.. I can get cross eye for staring at the long-winded worksheet for too long.. Now i dunno why my classmates are laughing.. dunno what so funny.. At least they are happy and GETTING A LIFE.

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Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Yoz.. Tomorrow is Deepavali.. and public holiday! Hooray! This weekend will be a long weekend, especially with Hari Raya celebration and all heh heh.. Can't wait! Another 4 more days to Hari Raya!! So let's countdown together!

Haizz.. Just now i got Entrepprise UT-Understanding Test (but for me, it means Ultimate Terror!). It really sux man! My laptop hanged in the middle of the test, and i have to go down to the IT helpdesk to fix it! Waste my time only.. According to the IT helper (or whatever he is called), he said that my laptop got SoOo many spywares.. Great.. Juz great.. However he helped to clear all the nonsense stuff from my laptop. Phew! Niwaes, i don't think that i will get good grades for my UT. It's all because of my laptop!! But no use regreting now.. Still got another 3 UTs to go. So wish me luck.

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Friday, November 05, 2004

HaIz... NgAnToK dOk.. TaK LeH aNgKaT dOk.. MaTa NaK tErTuTuP dOk.. HaRi Ni nYeR LeSsOn MrEpEk MaCaM nAk MaMpOs DoK.. TaK PaHaM sAtU bEnDa pUn DoK.. VB.net SuCkS dOk.. SaMpAi BiLa AkU NaK jAdI mCm GiNi DoK.. AkU bUdAk 'IT' DoK.. KnApEr La AkU bOdOh SaNgAt AmBiK 'IT' DoK.. PaDaN La nGaN mUkA aKu DoK.. pAnDai2 LaH aKu JaGa DiRi DoK.. sELaMaT bErJuAnG dOk.. ApEr Yg AkU mRePeK dOk.. TaK dE kEjE LaIn Ke DoK.. DoK sE dOk-DoK nYer..

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Thursday, November 04, 2004

Don't worry.. today i won't write bout my grades heh heh.. I know it can be such a bored to read me whining bout my grades rite.. But before that, i bet you that i'll get C for today's Entreprise skill module again wahaha.. (there i go again **roll eyes**). Luckily today's topic is quite ok; quite fun indeed! We even played monopoly haha.. If everyday can play games in school, i'll be the happiest person alive.

Today i saw that ITE guy again!! And he took the same bus as me WoO HoO.. heh heh.. Actually i thought that i'll not see him for this one whole week, but i was wrong lehz. When i saw him, i was, like, quite shock (what a lame reaction), and my stomach did this backflip (ya.. i know.. my stomach can do gymnastic while i can't- how unfair is that?). He was VERY (to the power of 10) cute! And er.. i like his hair wahaha.. And he look abit like Shawn Ashmore- the malay version! **SiGh** Serious.. Actually he was in the same ITE as my twin brother. Last time i got asked my bro bout him, and you know what he said?? He said i don't have taste in guys!! What the heck! Maybe my bro was jealous heh heh.. Whatever! But don't get me wrong lehz, i only like to look on that guy face. I don't even have a crush on him (if have, only a tinsy bit). I've come to my senses long time ago already that that kind of guy won't notice me one.. I'm so short, dark and ugly! Who wants a girl like me rite! Whatever it is, i still love being single and independent. For me, falling into the drain is better than falling in love. Wahaha.. don't ever go and try to fall into the drain juz to prove what i say heh heh.. That's my opinion only.. Ciaoz!

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Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
But deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

Welcome to my life

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One minute, it's sunny; another minute, it's raining. I don't even bring my umbrella- lazy to bring lehz... But, never mind lehzz, as long as there's no tornado or hurricane. CHOI! Actually, i'm updating this when there's still a presentation goin' on haha... I don't care. Haizz... I think i'm goin to get C for today's Culture and Atheistic module. I'm soooo use to seeing many Cs nowadays. It's also no use getting good result for my quiz- and, haha, have i told u that i got 2/6 for my quiz today?? OUTSTANDING. I will always get C one..AND I DON'T CARE!! Heck care to the max!

But, look on the bright side: it's already 20 days of fasting month!! Another 10 days, it will be 'Hari Raya'!! HooRay! But, as i'm already quite an adult now.. ehem.. (i'm not a girl not yet a women- like what Britney bitch sang), i think i'll not receive the green packet that much now. Muahaha.. i'm so bad, rite! Talking bout money even though it's still fasting month... Haha ok stop it.

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Monday, November 01, 2004

It's damn cold in class today. Thank god I didn't freeze to death. It's raining outside too... Haizz... I feel like sleeping... ZZZzzzz...

Before I really feel like sleeping, just let me update bout my last weekend. It was GGRREEEAATTT!! I broke fast with my whole family- including my aunties, uncles and cousins. On Saturday, I broke fast at my cousin's house, and on Sunday, at Islamic Restaurant. For these two days, I had been laughing my heads off and making stupid jokes with my cuz! I even laugh like mad at jokes that are not really that funny. Like what I said, I like to laugh my heads off, even for nothing. Well, life has been great... Until today... Another week of school and the nightmare comes again... Tomorrow there's UT (understanding test) on Culture and Atheistic again... Damn this laptop if it cause problem again. I don't want to fail just bcoz of my stupid laptop! Niwaes got to go. Ciaoz!

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